paresthesian walk

is my pain real?

is it really pain?

do i walk weird?

i sure feel strange

i know it’s natural

i’ve caused this by lack of care

but i still feel i dont belong in your ranks.

i know it will pass but right now i feel messed up and..

i like it.

maybe that’s how… or maybe not… they walked on the Moon.

for several seconds, i’m in a different world.

i like it there.

i needed that break from the mundane. It

i had no happiness,

just satisfied existence no vivacious ride,

but knowing that it’s a life on universes terms

and it outweighs your input,

no matter how great.

in the land where great violence looms,

in my mind’s eye music and hopeful songs

sometimes uninvitedly come into greater view

and out-shadow anxiety and deeply missing sanity.

this walk of light treading and caring not

is easier to breathe through.